I want to start off with an apology.
I know I haven’t always treated you well. Not only did I not fully know what you needed, I straight up ignored you when you tried to tell me.
I’m sorry about the abuse you went through by my own hand. I’m sorry for the times that I hurt you, that I starved you, that I harmed you all in the name of begging you change.
I’m sorry that I allowed others to call you horrible things and I’m sorry that I believed them. I’m sorry for the doctors that didn’t believe us when we tried to tell them what was wrong.
I’m sorry that when I did know what was wrong, that I didn’t do what was needed. I’m sorry I pushed you too hard.
I’m sorry that you experienced so much abuse from others.
I’m sorry for the things that I can never take back.
I’m sorry for the bruises, for the scars, for the trauma.
I’m sorry that I didn’t give you the right foods. I’m sorry I kept you perpetually sick.
I’m sorry that not only did I not see your potential, but I didn’t see what you were doing for me.
I didn’t understand fully what you were going through. I didn’t understand how exhausting it was. I know that you’re sometimes confused and tend to attack yourself without knowing why. But you’re constantly trying to repair the damage. You’re trying to heal yourself, and for that I’m forever grateful.
I’m so grateful for all the things you do for me.
I’m so blessed to have a body like you. I’m blessed to have a body that is strong and capable of lifting heavy things and developing muscle.
I’m so blessed to have a body that can move to music and inspire others to do the same.
I’m so happy that you’re there for me even when I don’t always tell you how amazing you are.
I’m so happy that you show up for me every dang day.
Without you, I wouldn’t be able to do anything. Literally.
You don’t have to show up for me the way you do. You don’t have to allow me to work as much as I do. You don’t have to allow me to express my love for fitness and lifting.
But you do.
And there aren’t enough words to express that.
From now on, I promise to do better.
I promise to give you the love and appreciation you deserve.
I promise to tell you on a regular basis that you are beautiful.
I promise to provide movement to keep you feeling great.
I promise to give you the proper food so you’re able to function at the highest level.
But more than anything else, I promise to love you.
I promise to be there for you, to take care of you, to work with you.
I promise to treat you with so much more respect.
I can’t take back what I’ve done, but I’m going to do better for the future.
Thank you for always being there for me.
I love you SO much.
Psst – did this resonate with you? If so, you should listen to this episode of the Confidence from the Ground Up podcast. I’m going to share with you just how amazing your body is, why, and how you can finally see how awesome you are. Click here to give it a listen!